Emo

Hello~ If i can accept thousand of your weakness and bad habits, can you try to accept a little bit of mine too? or at least praise the little, nope, alot of changes that i have made? ANNOYING LAR!!!!

The Woman that Cant be Moved

Guess that I am moving very slowly, maybe not even moving. Maybe there's not yet space available for a new one. Maybe I am just simply enjoying now. I just dunno, dont really think about it. Maybe I should start thinking and set up the priority. How much I wish things can be paused.

I know: when one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.

I always tell myself: I dont have to prove anything to anyone. I just need to prove myself how strong i am. I need to let go. Take some time, cry a bit and then move on. I will feel like I am born again.

To my dear friends, please dont tease me with another new guy. I may respond to the joke with a smile, but deep inside, i still think it is really weird. Not really long time ago, you guys blessed me to be happy forever with some guy. So teasing me like that is really weird. Dont ask me why, just try to put urself in my shoes.

Well, I am not moving. But at least, I am not longer waiting. Just the wash out period is kinda long. So what? I am not desperate. ;P I am still young, plenty of chances is waiting for me.

喜与悲

喜。。。
凌晨时刻，接到一个惊喜电话。好久没听到这声音。谈的不是嘘寒问暖，而是只关公事。为何我却开心到睡不着觉？闭上眼睛嘴巴都还在偷笑？

悲。。

傍晚时刻，接到一个熟悉电话。经常听到这声音。谈的只是嘘寒问暖，并非公事。为何我却感到如此厌烦？马马虎虎，怒气冲冲地回答，不到三分钟就把电话挂掉？我躺在床上，开始感到后悔。冷静之后，拨了电话回家。问候弟弟们。问候婆婆。婆婆的脚因为被我自以为是的二姑乱服中药，疼得不能走路， 针灸后才康复。我听着听着，眼泪也流了下来。

我最讨厌打电话回家。最讨厌嘘寒问暖。就是因为我不想，想家， 担心家务事。弟弟们顽皮，不努力读书。爸妈有时吵架。亲戚们有时玩暗战。这些压力，无形，却让我透不过气。我连家都很少回。但是，奇怪的是，六年了，我何尝没有一次，一离开家门，与爸妈婆婆道别，自己一个人在机场，偷偷流泪到上飞机？我对家，又爱又恨。这些，我的家人并不知道。他们懂的，只是陈家出了一个有个性，坚强的女医生。接到朋友电话，我喜；接到家人电话，我悲。我想，我只是一个，一旦投入长久感情，就会无法自拔，但又不擅长表达，带着假面具，的一个没用女儿。

惊喜道别电话

在机场， 竟然接到他的电话。 虽然说所谈的， 只是关于‘苹果’ ， 但是， 终觉得冥冥中已注定， 他在最后一分钟， 还是让我无比兴奋。 又开始想你了。。谢谢你！！

想念的味道

生活上有了一些改变， 也许当初他的决定是正确的。我生命出现了一些比情人还能持续更久的朋友。 每天嘻嘻哈哈， 吃喝玩乐， 有难同当， 有福同享。 而今天， 当他跟我说再见， 祝我假期快乐时， 我竟然开始想念起他了。 天呀， 我怎么搞的？ 哈哈！可能我想念的， 是他身上所散发的香草味道。 可能我想念的是， 他微笑的脸孔， 时而自大， 一次次重复他的威风史， 他的自信。 可能我想念的是， 在玩耍时，我们不经意的互动， 手指与手指相勾的那一刹那。 想念的味道， 甜中带点酸， 我开始喜欢这个恋爱最原始的味道。。

Screw You

Whats your fuckin problem? You busybody/ quidnunc/ nosey-parker/ nosy-parker! 

Sticking your nose into other people's business.. What is wrong with everyone nowadays?? What is it that makes everyone seems to think they are qualified to do things far beyond their capabilities??  That's the problem between two of us, so there is no space for u to come in and give advice.. Who do u think you are?? Real pro??? come on sucker, you loser!!! 

The best advice I can give is to ignore advice. Life is too short to be distracted by the opinions of others.

Good advice is something a man gives when he is too old to set a bad example.No enemy is worse than bad advice.

So screw you!!! We dun need ur advice.. Even wanna start a new life is also none of ur business!!! What kind of fren r u saying such thing??? I cant believe it.. What position do u have that makes u thk u can give such BAD ADVICE?? Fuck off!!!

~tired~

不要以为我很坚强，很快乐。如今淡漠只是武装自己不受伤。

我不喜欢别人把我看的脆弱，也不喜欢别人以为我很不快乐。

坏孩子的天空到底是怎样的？堕落？迷茫？颓废？还是外人无法欣赏的美好？我向往着…

我怕自己变成坏孩子！我怕最爱我的你们会不再爱我，不要我，会离开我。

我害怕你们的离去，所以我没有变坏，而是尽力让自己变成你们期待的。

其实每个人都不是想学坏的、可是现实对我们太残酷了。

坏孩子？变成家人、朋友不喜欢的人?你们还会爱那个坏孩子吗？但我可以说、

这一切也是你们直接或间接造成的、是你们亲手把一个好孩子拉进 坏的边缘。

自己何尝不想成为大家所喜爱的好好孩子，只是自己做得到吗？

越长大越孤单 越长大越不安 也不得不看梦想的翅膀被折断 也不得不收回曾经的话问自己

青春就是这样吗？ 自己的人生就是这样吗？自己就这样认命吗？

其实我们本质并不坏，只是压力大了，难以承受，只是自己承受不了身边一些不好的事情。

一些不如意的事情，才会想要自己变坏，变叛逆、

让自己离别人的期望越来越远，以为这样就可以逃离你们给我们的压力

现在你们对我们的期望更大，收回的失望更是大。

如果我说 我累了'' 我可以变坏吗？'''